COST OF CARRYING A UTERUS - 3

Next morning, while having breakfast in the pantry, Radha asked Neha, "I think we are to go watch the movie today".

"What movie?" Neha asked with surprise.

"Didn't Leena tell last evening...? Radha reminded her.

"O, yeah! let's see what's she upto" Neha replied

"Make up your mind, haven't been to CP for long" Radha urged.

"Yeah, come it's gonna ring" Neha said and stood up.

Radha too followed her.

"Metro is such a pretty thing that has happened to Delhi" Radha uttered the doors closed past her.

Though, it wasn't peak hours, yet metro coach they entered was full of passengers.  Some travellers still didn't find space to sit. On next station, two girls left their seats which were immediately claimed by Radha and Neha. Leena still stood in front of them. 

A boy stood next Leena incessantly stared at Leena. The trio had however noticed it but preferred to ignore him. However, Leena felt uneasy for she noticed him staring at her.

"He is dialing wrong number, doesn't know she won't ever allow him to say hi" Radha whispered into Neha's ears. "She won't even kick his ass" Neha added and they both giggled out together.

Though Leena understood that it was related to her, yet she couldn't get what it was for. It also irritated her a bit further. As both Neha and Radha noticed her mood swing, Neha offered her to come on her seat but Leena denied that yet she once more stole a glance towards the boy on the pretext of tweaking her hair; he still continued stare like a maniac. Leena seemed to be at her wits end. 

She also checked her tank top and Capri to ensure something isn't wrong on that account. Everything was fine and in place. She managed her bun again and with that, she turned her neck behind once more and stole a glance. What the heck, he was still staring. "What an incorigible creature" she thought to herself.

Radha noticed it all while Neha was busy checking her phone. Leena was upset and was about to ask Radha to her sit when the announcement came, "Next station is Rajiv Chowk". Both Neha and Radha stood up and moved towards the door. There was a huge crowd waiting to enter the train at the platform. The boy too followed Leena, whereas Radha followed him with Neha behind her. 

"What's up?" Radha asked. "Hell" replied Leena, making face and mincing, her body taut and nostrils fuming as if Radha offended her.

"Something wrong?" Radha asked.

"Don't mess, just follow" Leena only replied.

The moment they came out of the station, Leena approached the ice-cream vendor and asked for one.

"You too?" she looked at the duo not before she had taken a bite of her own.

Radha looked at Neha who in turn only stared at Leena with a frown.

"Two more" Leena took the safe bet.

There were already around 20 persons, most of them their age, waiting outside the entrance of American Centre.

"Kissing Jessica Stein" Leena read aloud the name of movie.

vinxn2003.

Weed - #Raincoat

Recently, a post praising use of weeds before intimate moments made me think on the phenomenon.

Intoxication, any sort of it, is akin to a self inflicted injury (read numbing here). Especially while intimate moments, one is taken for a ride by the intoxicant and he/she becomes a puppet/hostage in its hands. Whatever is done is done by the intoxicant, 'through' the bodies. Similar to doping, the performance is not of the human body but that of the drug, consumed only to make one less sensible. And we all know that such an athlete may, only wrongly, feel victorious only momentarily though, he isn't accepted as an actual winner. 

Another consequence of intoxication is a gradual increase in demand, which, if not met, results in decreased, less than normal even, performance besides other withdrawal symptoms. Unfortunately, only those who don't know how to apply what we humans have been bestowed with, are attracted towards, and later trapped and often subsequently incapacitated, by such 'supports'. Strange, and horrible too, how could someone deliberately arrange to feel lesser of the most magnificent sensory experience entrusted to the human beings. That's possible out of gross ignorance only. 

What would we call a person who craves to feel the rain but comes out wrapped in a #raincoat only in order to 'stay' there longer than his usual capacity, and no single raindrop actually touches his skin. Aren't feelings a subject to a conscious state of mind and body? An unconscious or semi-conscious person can't stand 'WITNESS'. As such, to feel the rain, one has to be out in the open without a cover.

Forced Conversion

I can't quit on Krishna, though I respect everything else, equally. Don't I always greet you with Dhanji?

That's insufficient.

To you that may be. But one thing I can't understand as to how come your babaji accept someone forced to succumb to him? Won't he recognize?... If he doesn't, then he doesn't deserve to be what he is considered by his disciples. It's clear.

Whatever, you have to or else....

What "or else..." Come what may. Just try to understand...think it over just once, with a cool mind. The one who asks someone to quit on something, just anything, isn't a competent leader; religious or any other kind. He must be a magnet unto himself attracting all the souls helplessly towards himself or else he doesn't have it... at all.

I thought you too believed and understood it well. Isn't it all the same and one?

I don't wanna hear anything; you do it or face consequences.

You are wrong, I already take them all with equal reverence. Why should I or someone else quit on what he loves? He should be free to do it as per his own will. If the second one holds water, the follower should/would forget everything else, without any such direction or even intention. Just try to understand how much stressed I am just because of this silly requirement of yours or your babaji.

No that's not possible...

You have to or I.... but was interrupted.

Tell me one thing, why are you so desperate ? Is any incentive assured if you get me there? Or is there any personal.... pause...

Now I recall something.... do you remember you showed me His pic, your Babaji? Quite personal, and close, His hair dripping wet... in or almost immediately after a bath. Also telling simultaneously that it's a privilege not allowed to many. Is this the way you think? 

And yes, you only even used #ISKCON, considering it my weakness. Though, I am thankful to you for that... for considering it so to me. He, only He, has always saved me... you too know that. Don't you?

Remember that azar door of the cupboard?

And yes, what about that #terrorist arrested from your house? I think the officer who handled that case is also behind this #forcedConversion insistence of yours. I think that man was from the same organization that is reponsible for @attackonamerica including attempts for attack on Pentagan and also #ParliamentAttack. 

Is that officer also a follower of Dhanji? What is your purpose finally? Above all, what would be the next course? #Beef? so far as I believe, he doesn't disapprove of that... 

Don't keep quiet, answer...

It's none of your business... you just do what is asked.

Come on, then who else's business is it?   Do you know that

POLES APART; YET ONE

After watching some articles on female Viagra recently, I observed that the main symptoms it causes on a subject are quite similar to those of anti-depressants; it relaxes, brings at ease a person. Whereas, the symptoms caused by the male Viagra are extreme opposite to its female counterpart. To be more precise, Male Viagra induces increase in BP whereas, Female Viagra induces the lowering of it.

Obviously, the researchers must have invested huge efforts before reaching the final conclusion and releasing both the drugs. The question is, why do the opposite, extreme opposite, qualities are required to be there as pre-requisites in order to achieve the desired destination?

Is the role expected from the feminine is nothing more than only being willing? If so, are the perpetrators forcing themselves on women at large, be it in marriage or otherwise, are missing at something virtuous, the very core? Are they interpreting it all wrong, horribly?

In Chinese philosophy, yin and yang (also yin-yang or yin yang, 陰陽 yīnyáng "dark—bright") describes how opposite or contrary forces are actually complementary, interconnected, and interdependent in the natural world, and how they give rise to each other as they interrelate to one another. (Courtesy; Wikipedia)

 

Cost of Carrying a Uterus - 2

"Get up energy scientist" It was Radha who woke her up and offered lemonade, after picking the book from Neha's lap.

"I slept so long" Neha said and took glass from Radha.

"Just freshen up and tell me what you have learnt today" Radha told her.

"Nothing much dear, I just slept mid-way" Neha replied.

"Was it so boring?" Radha asked.

"Not at all dear, it's shaking" Neha replied before sipping her last out of the glass.

"Ok then, get up and get ready". Radha pulled Neha by arm and got her on feet.

"Wait" said Neha and moved to bathroom.

"She has got a change recently.... only God knows what's going on in her" Radha murmured to herself while arranging the room. She placed books on their tables and moved to make beds.

"You also get freshen up" Radha just pulled the bed-sheet when she heard that. She turned and said "Getting faster... that's like a good girl"

"Don't know good or what, but girl, I definitely am....and that of todays" Neha replied while Radha moved towards the bathroom.

She looked at her bed and noticed that book was not there. She looked around and found that it was neatly placed on Radha's study table. She picked it and put the same on her's.

"Here we go" Radha came out with a chirpy sound. Beds were ready, in fact the whole room had become neat and clean.

"It must be battle gourd with grams" Radha said while locking the door. 

"Teasing?" Neha retorted.

"Nay dear...never. You know I like it" Radha replied.

"And I don't... at all. Just why don't the serve pizza... atleast once a month" Neha said.

"You've them much otherwise too" Radha said while going downstairs.

"Ok, you want to have it ?" Radha asked.

"So...." Neha stared at her with questioning eyes.

"Let's have it" Radha smiled.

"Com'on, we're getting closer" Radha swayed her hands and said.

"Closer to what?" Neha asked further, while her eyes were on staircase.

"The point of no return" Radha replied with a blast of laughter, that Neha also joined. She caught Radha's open palm and they both continued sparkling, with the entrance to the kitchen left behind. "Stupid" Neha only replied.

As they moved out, they both noticed Leena heading towards them, but the reactions on their faces were poles apart. Neha brighten up watching her, whereas, Radha's smile immediately vanish and what was there now was a dumb, plain face. 

"Hi.... what's up?" Leena asked looking at Neha.

"Gonna commit suicide, wanna come along?" replied, off course, Radha.

"Come on dear..." Neha jerked her hand, "not always".

"I dislike the way she always keep measuring me, as if I am a prospective target of her", Radha said. Leena had reached. She hugged Neha. After that she opened her arms to Radha, though she felt that she wasn't welcomed. 

Neha watched wide eyed when Radha moved forward and responded positively to Leena's invitation. It was perhaps the recent jerk from Neha that made her do that as her face was still conveying the same expressions, no impressions we better say.

"What's up?" Leena quipped.

"Dine out... joining?" Radha replied with an invitation.

"Why not?" Leena felt elated and turned around along them towards the main entrance of the complex. She hold Radha's hand.

"What's there in your pantry?" Neha asked.

"Same old grass and roots...." Leena replied. Meanwhile, Radha, who had got her hand freed till now slowed down a little so that she stayed back a step or two. Both Neha and Leena moved ahead. Radha slowly switched her right and took Neha between her and Leena. Neha was so lost that she perhaps didn't notice that change, but Leena did.

"What's up?" Leena leaned forward and asked Radha, who had now taken hold of Neha's hand and was moving along.

"Nothing, just like that" she replied casually. Interestingly, Neha behaved as if she didn't notice it at all even still.

However, Leena didn't continue with her questioning and informed Neha, "There's a LGBT film festival gonna happen, let's go see a movie, it's free and only an ID proof is required".

"When?", it was Radha, off course against combined surprise of them both.

Both Neha and Leena's necks were fixed towards Radha, similar to those of the members of a parading contingent of cadets reaching in front of the Chief Guest standing on the stage for salutations.  It took a while for both of them to understand that least expected, or may be unexpected, had happened.

Leena, obviously, appeared zestful, whereas Neha mentally went after the 'why' factor.

"Tomorrow, at American Centre, CP" Leena replied, she ensured she looked into the eyes of Radha. 

"I, actually hesitated bringing it out in your presence" Leena explained but Radha stopped her midway, "Why?... it's just a movie, a story or a thought of an artiste, provided it's presented decently, and I would also like to have a glimpse of what's it all about"

"That's the spirit," Neha exclaimed and patted Radha on her back with a surprise in her eyes. "Are you....?,", "Why not?," Radha caught Leena midway. They had now reached just outside the main entrance to the Campus. As if instinctively, the trio halted in front of the Kishori Burger Stall, and without a mention, he also started preparing three burgers.

"He indeed is a potential rival to McDonalds" Leena said while having her first bite, while Radha and Neha waited for theirs to reach.

"Here it is" Kishori spoke while serving the other two burgers.

Both Neha and Radha readily received their respective plates and poured huge amounts of chilly and tomato sauces before savouring.

"Whatever, he is our McDonalds, in the face of adversities put up by hostel pantries" it was Neha. Radha kept quiet.

"What are the timings?" Radha asked after finishing her first bite.

"It's in the evening, I'll convey" Leena replied.

"Want more?" Leena asked after finishing her plate.

"No, one is enough" Radha replied while Neha only nodded North to East.

"Well, not for me..." Leena quipped and signalled Kishori to prepare another burger.

Radha kept looking at Leena with a thoughtful gaze. Neha noticed that and nodded in a manner as if saying "what's up?". Radha also replied in the same manner as if saying "Nothing". 

Just then Leena also got a wind of the happenings and asked "What?" looking at Radha and Neha, one by one.

"Why do one's not enough?" Radha quipped.

"Well, it's about appetite and that's something very personal and individual....mind?" Leena replied.
"Nay" Radha concluded.
"Let's move" Leena declared after finishing her plate.
"O yes, how much for that?" Leena asked the vendor and offered a hundred rupee note.
"Eighty" he said.
"Then keep the change" Leena told and moved forward holding Neha's hand.

"That's so great of you" Neha commented.

"Impressing a prospective suitor" Leena added with wink.

"Impossible" Neha murmured, however Leena got that and replied, "Nothing is", with a smile and squeezed Neha's hand a little more.

Radha was oblivious, perhaps thinking about something else.

"Why are you at it all the time?" Radha asked.

"Well, it's worth it" Leena left before Neha opened her mouth to reply, though she didn't wait for long and caught up immediately after Leena.

"My mom always said, "There's nothing worth dying for in it, you would realize everything in time,"

"mine too!, do they have undergone the same syllabus on the subject?" Leena exclaimed, "Now you can't disagree", she added watching at Radha.

Radha burst into a sound laugh and said" I can't help it", while she was unable to control herself, or perhaps she didn't want to.

Off course, even Neha stared at Radha with a questioning gaze, as if saying, or asking "How come we didn't talk on that before?,"

"Are you stupid or what?, what are you laughing at?" Though Neha blurted out but within herself, she believed that another gem from "The Divine Union of Energies" could be on the way through Radha. She was all ears.

"I laughed for two reasons" Radha raised her palm and came in front of them both, still walking backwards.

"And what those reasons are my doll....." Leena asked in an extra melodious voice, but Neha interrupted her, "What were you told? tell me that first".

Radha stopped walking and put both her hands on Neha's shoulders. Neha also stopped. 

Radha started, "I am told that it's indeed the most wonderful feeling a human body is capable of witnessing but at the same time, it requires a huge amount of patience and preparedness on the part of both the partners. However, whatsoever and howsoever one may try to make it the best, the First is Worst".

"Yes! by all means, though, they all say that, what's new in it?" Leena didn't miss the chance as she felt left behind.

"Not by all means and what makes the difference is the partner....". Radha added, still staring at Neha.

"Off course, there has to be a partner, are you kidding or what?" Leena said. Whereas, Neha stood still all the while, with her eyes wide open as if to grab the most of what Radha was to deliver.

"She asked something" Neha hissed in a voice that only Radha could hear. "I heard that" she said.

"I am told that the partner......, a partner you never repent doing it with, better say never doing it for, and not the outcome of the act, makes all the difference; after all, it has to happen at one or the other moment in life and it's real celebration lies in with whom you were there and chose to share those moments...."

"Not clear" Neha hissed.

"I too responded ditto, though a little more tangibly, and then I was told that it takes only a moment to pause and ponder in such a situation over the fact that whether it's the person before you or it's your own mad rush of raging hormones that's not allowing you to see beyond it's own momentary interest... Perhaps, that's what they call love, or falling in love"

"Poor, child" Leena uttered.

Radha ignored, only apparently, what Leena said and continued gazing at Neha, whose grip on her shoulders had now a little loosened up. It was clear that Neha's eyes only were set on Radha's face and her mind was wandering in some unknown realms. Radha made no attempts to bring her back into reality, moreover, she placed both her palms on her wrists softly, without breaking eye contact. Till now, Leena also had accepted the importance of silence. After a few moments, Neha uttered "sounds good" and removed her hands off Radha.

The trio reached in front of Leena's hostel block in utter silence whereupon, Leena bade good night to both of them and parted. Radha and Neha entered theirs, reached their room and retired for the day, silently. "Hare Krishna" Radha greeted her after she accommodated herself while switching the side lamp off. "Hare Krishna" reply reached.

'You never told...', it was Neha after a few minutes, she knew her friend was still awake.

"I knew you couldn't be preached", Radha replied with a smile that Neha also felt even in the dark.

"Tell me just one thing..." Neha said.

"hmm.." Radha only replied

"How could something be both beautiful and worst at the same time?" Neha asked.

Silence prevailed; Neha decided to have patience. 

"Beautiful as the phenomenon and worst when approached vaguely like just everything worthwhile...just think about your own experiences, I don't think you can't answer yourself" Radha replied.

"Taunting?" Neha seemed vexed.

"Do you think so?" Radha asked

"No...." Neha replied and then added, "they are all alike..." before laughing aloud. 

"Just keep quiet...the phantom would be on the round" Radha scolded her.

"I don't care" Neha was undeterred.

"But I do" Radha said and changed side.

But Neha wasn't one to surrender, she asked, "Tell me just one thing, do you personally believe in it?"

"Again...you tell me...and I promise I will follow whatever you would, should I or shouldn't?" Radha asked.

"Are you sure, be warned, I could ask you to do anything.." Neha was intense.

"Damn sure" Radha affirmed.

Silence prevailed once more and then Neha replied, "You better be there".

"Thanks, that's like you...I knew it...that's why I love you"

vinxn2003.

To be continued...... vinxn2003.

a male arrives in this world with a fair amount of feminine energy as an unavoidable support for existence. Likewise, a female arrives with a fair amount of masculine energy within. Quite like the eyes of the fishes in Yin and Yang symbol.


“When we practice sacred sexuality we are working with cosmologically rooted principles, balancing the heavenly yang (male energy) of the universe with the all-knowing, life-giving yin (feminine energy) of the earth within ourselves.” 
― John Maxwell Taylor, Eros Ascending: The Life-Transforming Power of Sacred Sexuality

“A man who is not as evolved as the woman he is with will hold her back, drain her spirit, and prevent the film of her life playing out to its intended conclusion.” 
― John Maxwell Taylor, Eros Ascending: The Life-Transforming Power of Sacred Sexuality

“There is a supernal intelligence behind sexual arousal, the true purpose of which is to create for us ecstatic experiences of our own divinity.” 
― John Maxwell Taylor, Eros Ascending: The Life-Transforming Power of Sacred Sexuality

“The dance between darkness and light will always remain— the stars and the moon will always need the darkness to be seen, the darkness will just not be worth having without the moon and the stars.” 
― C. JoyBell C.

In Chinese philosophy, yin and yang (also, yin-yang or yin yang) describes how apparently opposite or contrary forces are actually complementary, interconnected, and interdependent in the natural world, and how they give rise to each other as they interrelate to one another. Many tangible dualities (such as light and dark, fire and water, and male and female) are thought of as physical manifestations of the duality symbolized by yin and yang.